how do I live without him??

hrmmmm *deep breath*
I seems can't really used to it...
I don't think that I could start everything all over again...
coz you know... the process that I need to been through is really tough enough...
I can imagine that...
COZ I'VE BEEN USED TO IT!!!
I know that I'm selfish... I really am... nothing else I can do...
maybe I should give up all the temptations outside and back to where I belong...
I have to make my own decision... either to be suffer or not...
Sorry for my indeciveness... I'm sorry...
I need to make sure everything is ok... a more distinct future... and the most important is I'll feel blissful to it... for what I've got and possessed...