27.10.09

I'm not happy but why?

Sigh got moody after the rain... barely fall asleep wonder is it the stress I am confronting since final is around the corner? or envious I felt suddenly in the afternoon? or loneliness I got when no one is beside me? I dunno... I've had always tell myself everything will be alright... we can cope with stress when we do something before it is too late... envious ruin me, of couse nothing is perfect in this world.. we should accept our goods and bads... correct and improve ourself as do whatever you can do unless you can't do anything.. you get me? but sometime, you will get motivated when you feel like striving for what you don't have instead... @@ anyway, you can never reached the place you wish to... coz you always aim higher than what you can do in exact... sigh sad isn't it even you have already done your best or even contribute much more than anyone else... is just so unfair... :( perhaps we should just accept the fact that we aren't as good as the others... or we are not as lucky as the others whereby they have born in that way? Like added wings to fly higher up above the sky? yeah it is true... lucky or unlucky is the fact... if you feel yourself unlucky, you should work more harder... although you might not see the seeds you sow today, if you wait patiently, the seeds might grow even bigger and exuberant than the others... time and attitudes matter... Loneliness is what makes me suffered a lot... I hate to be alone yeah undoubtedly we feel peace within when there is no one... anyway, it feels bad when no one ask and care about you... as you are living alone in the earth... and your mouth smells stinky when you got no one to talk and crap with... for those who drink less water of course... :D awhhhh feels great after splitting all my thoughts and feelings out... the angel inside me defeated the evil ones.. :)))

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